Participating in the Bloved ministry has blessed me with the ability to see beyond my wounds. My whole life I’ve been plagued with all of these trauma responses and because I didn’t know where they originated from, it was hard for me to move past them. Prior to joining the ministry, I was familiar with generational curses but I hadn’t had the opportunity to really process those that I was facing. Over the course of my time in the ministry, God began to reveal where I had been cut deep.

One of the things He revealed to me is how I surrendered my needs as a child, thinking that I was helping my single mom of 3. I didn’t realize the impact it had on me until God showed me how I turned around and forced my oldest daughter to do the same. That manifested in her as extreme anxiety, especially when it comes to advocating for herself. It was hindering our relationship. But God is so graceful and merciful that where I should’ve been condemned, there was forgiveness. I’m so grateful to have received this revelation in time to heal her wounds before they got as deep as mine. Now I can raise all my kids to feel safe and loved and wanted.

What God has given Ms.Kelly is an anointing that only one with experience could obtain. I learned that there’s beauty in grief. That the good in goodbye really is good. God also gave me breakdown of a phrase that is so often times used but misunderstood. “Joy comes in the morning. ” Lets break it down.

Mourn: To feel or express sorrow or grief. Joy literally comes when we mourn, when we grieve. Grief may be a tough emotion to feel but if we don’t feel, we cannot heal. When we aim to numb our pain, we miss the opportunity for joy.

The word emotion comes from the Latin verb emovere, which means “out move.” When we experience our emotions we allow ourselves the grace to move out of that stage into the next stage of our lives. Bloved also helped me to be able to grieve my kids dad as well. I’m ready to move on.

Glory to God